When it rains, it POURS! Literally!!!!

Weirdest. Day. Ever. Instances below....

1. I stayed late at school because I have a bunch to get done by the end of the school year. When I came out of school my brand new, barely a month old car would NOT start. I have never ever had that happen to me...even with my old car. I immediately called my friend Gabe. He is a mechanic and works out kinda by my school. He came right out (even though he was already home). It was POURING buckets of rain right before he got there (SSSOOO sick of this freak rain that wont go away in Utah). Luckily it stopped right before he came. When we popped my hood he tightened too little nuts on the wires that connect the battery and it started right up. No problem. THANKFULLY, but only the beginning of my weird/ironic evening.
2. I drove home and met Gabe at my  house. I told him I would take him to dinner because he drove all the way out there to help me. Before I left, I realized that my roommate Berkley had text me to make sure I got my car started, so I quickly text her back explaining what happened. Then she text me back and said "who is this?" "This isn't Berkley, this is Emily..." i totally thought my roommate was trying to tease me and just playing a joke...and i text her back things like "oh ok....really??? then why do i have you in my phone as Berkley...and you just text me 5 mins ago...." but oh no... As I pull into my drive  this random girl calls me and says "I'm sorry, I don't know you... I am not Berkley." Oh yes... my possessed phone said i was texting Berkley, but I was really texting some completely random person.....
3. So Gabe and I are on our way to dinner and all of the sudden my white car, the car I sold a month ago drives past full of this little family. I am 99.99% sure it was my car because it still had my Dad's triple A stickers on the back bumper and my planet fitness parking sticker (too bad I forgot to grab that!) in the window. What are the odds??? You can ask Gabe, I was freaking out. I even took a picture on my phone(we'll get to the picture later). It was SSOO weird to see someone else driving that car... I have too many memories (good and bad) in that car......
4.  Gabe and I have dinner, he takes me home and I go to use my phone to get online. My mobile hot spot was not working... So, finally fed up with my phone being temperamental lately I decided to take it to the Verizon store. Example A...it had turned itself off (at this point) 4 times during the day, completely by itself. They gave me a phone number and I spent an hour on the phone with tech support 70% of which I spent on hold and asking the lady if she was really still there.... They gave me all these things to do and then FINALLY said ok! It should be fine! 
5. I go connect to the internet, and then I am watching TV with my roomies. I push a button to check my phone....what do you know.... it had turned itself off AGAIN. I turned it back on, checked it, put it down and then not two minutes later i saw the light flash like i had a message, so i checked it again..... it turned off again!!!!!!!!!!!! So i called the dumb tech support people back and told them the whole story for the 93rd time and got disconnected. So i called and told the story for the 94th time. They finally decided to reset my phone completely. I specifically asked if I would loose my pictures, and the man assured me I would not (the only reason I agreed to the reset). 
6. I go through the reset and only AFTER the reset did I realize i had put a password on my phone that i needed to get back into my contacts and saved info....did i remember the password?? of course not. and to reset the password I had to go to my e-mail....I DONT HAVE INTERNET WITHOUT MY PHONE!!!!!!!!!!
7. I set up a new/temp/fake account so that i can use the internet to check my password, RE reset my phone, change the profile to my original profile and let it load.
8. Contacts in tact! YAY! Pictures....gone forever..... NO picture of my old car I sold.... no cute picture of my niece and nephews.... no picture of the San Diego Temple for my background....
9. no extra time in the night to go grocery shopping like i needed. 
10. Now I am so riled up i cant sleep even though thats all I really want to do.  

Monday:10 

ME: zip, zero, zilch

I figure its only right... I had this amazing revelatory Sunday in which I realized everything is in the Lord's hands and as long as I'm doing what I'm supposed to he will lead me where I need to be. So i told him yesterday "Ok Lord, Its in your hands! I am trusting you! I am not going to whine and stress any more!" and now he is saying FINALLY, but Ok.... lets make sure.....he's testing me and hopefully I passed.

Frustration is an understatement.....

BAH!!!! I am so annoyed! First of all, I had an interview for a 6th grade position. They had to have had someone already picked out because they hardly listened to a word I said. One lady interrupted me mid sentence and said "oh.... will it ever stop raining???" They weren't even listened to a word. It's not like I was being long winded either. I also found out yesterday that my friend was interviewed at the school I thought I for sure had good chance at getting. So, I was pretty upset that I didn't even get called for an interview. My principal came and talked to me and said "for some reason you weren't on the list of people she was going to interview." So... I researched a little more and found out that my application did not go through. I filled it out and everything. Not to mention I emailed the principal and said I was interested in interviewing. BUT apparently she didn't get my application and therefore chose not to interview me. I feel like a scum bag because my principal went to a lot of work talking me up to this principal and my principal even said "I'm pretty sure she would have given  you a job if you would have gotten an interview." SSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOO frustrating that I didn't double check! It's my own dumb fault for not making sure it went through... that was the job I was counting on. Bah Hum bug.... I suppose I wasn't supposed to get it and the Lord has other plans...as frustrating as it is..... I was a shoe in.......

Balance

There's this song that was on my friends facebook page a while ago and I listened and kind of fell in love with the song. It is sung by Natalie Weiss, who is simply amazing! It's called Quiet. It kinda goes along with some things I have been thinking lately. It  says:
 "What's the perfect balance between yelling too much, and not yelling enough so that people don't walk over you. Is it a crime just to want to be nice, to avoid confrontation, and show everyone a little respect. Time after time I find that I'm struggling to tell you what's burning inside..."

I probably don't mean it in the same context as the song (if you go listen to it). But I suppose I have been contemplating balance in all things lately. Especially in relationships, not just romantic ones. I had a friend sit me down and tell me how I needed to be more "fun" (his version of fun) and that I needed to go out to parties and be more outgoing. And I agree, partially. I don't think I should change who I am just to be more "fun". I don't enjoy going to parties. I am the quiet one in the corner because I don't want to be there. I tried to explain our personality differences there, but he chalked it up to me being a "good Mormon girl". Don't take this the wrong way. He sounds like a jerk when I explain it that way. He is very outspoken. I take everything he said with about a GALLON of salt. It didn't bother me per-say, I am pretty comfortable with who I am...  but it did make me think.  What's the balance?? I don't want to be the sit-at-home-hermit-girl but at the same time I'm not the go out wild and crazy girl either.... and for that matter... Where's the balance for a lot of things... flirty but not too flirty, nice but not too nice, happy but not too happy, mature but not boring, etc.... Is it a crime to be shy?? or to like staying at home once in a while? or not be the outgoing-get-all-the-boys type of girl????Admittedly I am shy. I have to get to know someone pretty well before my personality really comes out and I think that gets translated and me being boring. I have to say, I am a million times better now that I was in High School. Progress is progress?

And as for the last line in the song... I feel like a lot of times, for some reason, I have hard time explaining myself out loud. In almost anything. Sometimes, when I blog, it comes out easily and nicely and I feel better after doing it... but other times, like today, I don't feel satisfied in getting my thoughts on paper. It still feels jumbled. Any way.... a moment in my brain for you......

Can I do this?!?!?!

Today was probably one of my worst teaching days EVER. Things were going perfectly fine. We started Book clubs, and were about to review for our CRT test that was after lunch (still a a good two hours away......or so i thought...) Next thing I know the office is calling down to my room saying "you are 15 mins late for your CRT test... Mr. Cole needs you down there as soon as possible." To which I responded "Oh, actually my test today is at 1:30..." to which THEY responded "we had to change it last minute, you need to go now." ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?!?! We hadn't reviewed at all since last week, my kids are NOT focused and not in testing mode AT all and now I have to RUN them to the computer lab with out a potty break or drink to HURRY and take this test that(hurry and CRT test should not belong in the same sentence unless NOT is in there...) that takes an hour but there is only 45 mins til lunch.... and TRUST me, my kids are like little atomic clocks and can sense when it is exactly lunch time. There goes ALL hope of them staying focused on the test....Not the mention the fact that I had no time to prep them and get them in calm test mode...

Let's just put it this way... I had 2 kids finish in less that ten minutes... (with at least 6 full page passages they had to read to answer the questions.... apparently they are genius kids and have been tricking me this whole year) and I had about 5 kids that were more interested in playing with the on screen tools (highlighter, inverting the color, strike through etc) then actually reading or answering questions.... Best part was that we can't leave til everyone is done with the section...so I have 20 hungry kids that are finished and antsy and pointing to the clock every time I glance in their direction and 5 that are so busy highlighting, wiggling the mouse or even using their pencil as some sort of massage tool on their face to actually finish their test... I was SSSOOOO annoyed with the office... and they could care less because it doesn't effect them what-so-ever.

Lucky me, thats how I get evaluated as a teacher....they look at kids that could care less about a test and if they don't score well I am the one thats screwed... tell me how that makes sense!?!?!?!

My theme song right now... It's called Tonight, Tonight by Hot Chelle Rae. Here are my favorite parts

It's been a really really messed up week 
Seven days of torture, seven days of bitter


La la la, whatever, la la la, it doesn't matter, la la la, oh well, la la la 


I don't know if I'll make it BUT WATCH HOW GOOD I'LL FAKE IT
Its all right, all right, tonight, tonight 

realizations

The more I talk to other people and the more I think about my life, the more I realize how I am no where near ready to be married.... Don't get me wrong... someday I would love to be... but for me, personally, I don't see that day being any time soon. The End...

Visitors......

So, tonight, a regular Wednesday night... or so I thought. I got home from work and my friend Gabe that lives down the street called and wanted to hang out. He knows a ton about cars, and I am thinking of trading mine in, so he came over to help me look. A little later, our friend Chase came over. My roommate Berkley came up and was making herself dinner, so the four of us (Berk, Gabe, Chase and I) were in the kitchen talking. Chase brought up something about  how Gabe had just bought a new hand gun, so Gabe decided to go grab it out of his truck. Berk and I were both a little nervous... and so after a little bit Gabe went outside to put his gun back in his truck. 

All of the sudden, I notice see flash lights in my back yard. Then two cops with a dog walk past my kitchen window. I thought what the heck is going on!?!?! Thats when I heard the knock on my front door. My friend Chase answered the door and the person that had knocked stood back so we had to come outside to see him. It was another cop (thankfully, not some psychopathic killer, which I have to admit crossed my mind...) He asked if we were the only ones there, and if we could please step outside. Of course by this time I am thinking maybe the previous renters had done something and  we were getting the blame. Then the cop says "do you know that guy over there?" I honestly didn't see any one at first so I am  sure I looked really confused... then I realized my friend Gabe was off in the distance talking to another cop. With pure terror in my voice and a little shock I said  "Gabe?!?!?! long pause..... yyyyeeeeaaaahhhh..... how come? Is something wrong?" And then the cop asked if there was a problem and what we were doing and why he was at my house with a gun. I was like um no... nothing is wrong he was just showing us the gun he bought. He is a friend that lives down the street. So then the cop hands the gun itself back to Gabe, and the clip to my roommate Berkley and tells her not to give it to him until he is all the way back inside the house. 

I guess what happened was that the cops were outside my house because our neighbors had gotten in a fight and one of them said they were going to kill themselves and so someone called the cops (great neighborhood I live in right??). The cops were staked outside my house watching to see what was going on at the neighbors and trying to find the guy that was suicidal because I guess he was walking around outside. Then out walks Gabe with a gun in his hand. He said he had two assault rifles pointed in his face and a dog that was too close for comfort. WRONG place and the WRONG time! haha Kind of a funny story even if Gabe and I both about peed our pants! I told Gabe I couldn't be his friend any more because he was a bad influence on me. :)

Yay for a little excitement in my life!

Jazz!

Lately I have had a little excitement in my life.... the best thing...My friend called me last Wednesday and told me he had Jazz tickets. And I thought oh thats fun! I will go... and then I got there and found out our seats were on the 7th ROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was AMAZING! We sat right behind the Nuggets. We could see them making their plays! It was so fun! I LOVED it! and it was kind of a tender moment for me because the first LIVE  Jazz game I saw was against the Nuggets in the pre season when I first moved to Salt Lake. SO fun! UNFORTUNATELY my fav, CJ Miles, was not playing... that is probably the only thing that would have made it better.

Awkward....

Um dang... I just realized my background says Happy New Year! HAHA

AND I found out today that it is most likely I am NOT staying at my school next year. There two positions available and they were filled by involuntary transfers. Which means I will be switching schools and i have to re interview and all that jazz... lame.....

Annoyances

Ug... When I start getting stressed it seems to translate to other parts of my life and it really annoys me. Being stressed annoys me because I tend to stress over things that  I can't control...and mentally I think this is SO stupid to stress over! theres nothing I can do about it! but yet i still stress over it... and then because I'm stressed little things start to annoy me... and then i get annoyed that im getting annoyed. Its kind of a vicious cycle...

Any way... the reason I was posting is because its the end of the year... which means CRT's for my kiddos... (state tests) which stresses me out. It's kind of a lot of pressure on me and I'm not gonna lie, I'm kind of panicking. Oh well! I guess theres not a TON that I can do now. (SEE! Stressing about something I can't really change!)

AND I am kind of kicking myself, because I signed a one year only contract. Which basically means that no matter what I have to re-interview for a job. Even if I get to stay at my school. BUT to top it all off... we have to wait. If there is a teacher at another school that gets surplused to my school, they would get my spot before I would... LAME right?? The District is dragging their feet and taking their time placing surplus teachers (why do they care right? they have a job!) They were supposed to be placed by last week! SO as soon as they are placed, my principal will know if she can interview. Then I would have to interview for my position. My principal has basically said if it comes to interviewing i would get to stay. I just hate not knowing.

blog blues....

I suck at blogging right now... I started blogging about my trip and then I just fizzled and stopped.... I felt like I was rambling and everything I could come up with to say about my trip was less than mediocre. DONT get me wrong! My trip was WAY WAY more than mediocre, I just couldn't  write about it very well... My writing skills have recently gone into hibernation apparently. So, if you want to check out my Arizona trip (maybe some day I will finish the post) you will have to take a look at my rad-tacular picture on facebook. Hope to rejoin the blogging world again soon....

THE END.