At the peak of random ramblings...

This very well maybe be the most random post ever...but no one really reads this any way...

First.....Shout out to my one true and faithful blog reader Mrs. Valerie Stewart! Thanks Val! Love ya! Miss ya! you make me realize maybe people actually care about what random thoughts go through my head...

Second..... I will be a college graduate in approximately 5 days or about 120 hours or about 7200 minutes... time has FLOWN by and i cant even believe that i am almost done. It feels good to think i may never have to do homework again...only thats a lie because teachers are always taking classes to stay certified or get paid more etc etc... And in a way it kinda sucks because i think i have realized that i cant be a teacher. I love teaching and its what i want to do....but teaching takes over your life. I know that it will get better the longer i teach but i just don't want a job that i have to take home with me. I want to stop working when i punch out and leave. I have a job as an aide which really is what i would like to do. i LOVE working with small groups or even one on one with students. I just wish it paid as well as teachers.... i would totally stay doing that the rest of my life. I think i am going to really enjoy my new job.

Third... I hate dating... i hate it with a passion. Pretty much the only reason i do it is because i know i am supposed to and i know if i dont i will never get married. But that doesnt change anything. i still hate it. I havent been on a date in a long time that i have thought "oh my gosh that was so fun i hope he asks me out again" I honestly havent been REALLY attracted (my attraction stays for more than a week) in like 9 months. Dating is just lame to to me..... i would so much rather go on a date with someone that i have gotten to know already and that i can be more myself with. I have probably just gotten bitter and cynical....but i really dont care if i have a date or not... it used to crush me and now when im on a date the whole time im thinking....i would rather be out with my friends. So i have a bad attitude.....yet another reason its gonna be a LONG time before i get married.

Fourth..... I need to find an apt. I havent ever really hunted before i have just said this one ready go. but this time we are actually looking around. and honestly in salt lake there are SSSOOO many options. Its overwhelming. Im sick of looking i just want to be done now.

Fifth.... Im really excited to go home for Thanksgiving. I have been missing my mom and dad lately. I cant say homesick because Rigby isnt home to me. But i am excited to go and be with my family. The Fall season is definitely my favorite time of the year! From like Halloween to Christmas. It rocks my world.

Sixth.... I hate snow. It snowed today.... a lot...... and i shut myself in my apt all day so i wouldnt have to think about it. I live in the basement and cant see it unless i really look hard so i could live in my own delusional world. But then i remember i had a date tonight and i was supposed to meet and my friends apt... so i had to trudge out side and scrape the six inches of snow and inch of ice off my car.... my hands were numb. I am so not looking forward to this winter.

Listen to me being Debbie downer. hahaha just remember my happy point. I graduate in 5 days! woot!

Seventh..... on a much happier note.... I went to the Utah symphony and they did Bravo Broadway... I! LOVED! IT! it was SSOOO awesome! they had three of broadways stars come and sing the songs while the Utah symphony played them. There were a few times i caught myself with my mouth just hanging open. The tenor was like all that is good and holy in the world. I was in love with him just because of his voice.... It seriously like put me in a trance....he gave me chills.... i dont know what it is about tenor voices but it just fills me with this love.... while i was listening to him it mad me think there is nothing wrong in the world.... his voice cannot even be described in words. My favorite thing i have done in Utah so far! BY FAR!

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