Farewell to 2009....

Well the survey I took yesterday kinda sorta summed up my year.. in a way... but i wanted to do one more special farewell to 2009.

This year......I really dont have words to describe.... it started off to be what seemed like the WORST year of my life. I have a previous post that describes this point in my life pretty well. I broke up with my first boyfriend, I was beyond stressed with school and feeling SUPER intimidated about continuing on to do my student teaching, my grandma passed away (I took it much worse then I thought I would. I went a week that I cried at least once a day... and good HARD cry), and to top it all off my Dad was diagnosed with Oral Cancer.

By April of this year I thought my life was in shambles and I was pretty much miserable. I decided to take a job at the Day Care that i worked at the summer before (I hated it then... I think i was determined to make myself miserable) But it ended up being on of the best things i could have done. I LOVED working there. There were a bunch of new girls mostly my age and we all got pretty close! I actually enjoyed going to work because it was the only time in my life that i could forget about my worries and focus on something else.

All in all I really did have an awesome summer! Katelyn and I made a big trip to Seattle. I want to go back SSSOOO bad!!!! I also drove back to Milwaukee with my sister and her two kids. Three full days in a van packed full with a 5 year old a 2 year old and a pregnant lady.... Doesnt sound like much fun but believe me it WAS!! I will NEVER forget some of the memories we made on that trip!

Since the beginning of this year i knew, more than anything, i just really needed a BIG change in my life. I hated Idaho.( I still do) I had a lot of bad memories there. A lot of things that kind of haunted me if i was going to stay there. I knew that my life in Idaho wasn't going to go any where. I felt like I wouldnt get any where near the goals i wanted to accomplish if i stayed there.

In August I packed up all my junk and moved to Utah. I can HONESTLY say it is the BEST decision I have ever made! I had felt like I needed to be in Salt Lake ever since my friend got married here over a year before. I still don't really know why I need to be here but I know its what I need. I love it here! I love all the fun stuff there is to do, the friends i have made, the ward I am in and most of all the growth i have made as a person.

Also...something important to mention is my GRADUATION!!! I walked in Graduation in July so that I didnt have to go back to Rexburg when I was done. BUT i am now an official college grad!!! official official! Like my degree is posted by BYU-I and everything! My name was in the program this time! (It wasnt when i walked cuz i hadnt finished my student teaching)

2009... what seemed to be the worst year of my life turned out to be one of my favorite years of my life so far. It was HARD. There were very miserable times... but I think I have done the most maturing and learning i have ever done. I have grown closer to my Heavenly Father and allowed myself to trust him so much more. And realized how much he blesses you align your life to what he wants for you. Good-bye 2009!!! I will never forget you!!!

Random side note... when I realized today was New Years Eve I kinda panicked because in my brain its like the wonderful year is over... And everything is going to change tomorrow!!! Which is silly because it really is just another day...haha

bored...

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Hot Chocolate
2. Last phone call: Brad
3. Last text message: Berkley
4. Last song you listened to: Would you go with me - Josh Turner
5. Last time you cried: um... i dont remember....

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: nope
7. Been cheated on: nope
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope :)
9. Lost someone special: Yes
10. Been depressed: mildly...
11. Tripped on your own feet: hahaha more than most people

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. greenish blue
13. black
14. purple

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yup!
16. Fallen out of love: no....
17. Laughed until you cried: Yes! but thats not hard
18. Met someone who changed you: YES
19. Found out who your true friends were: um... kind of?
20. Found out someone was talking about you: no
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Nope

MISCELLANEOUS:
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: all of them
23. How many kids do you want? any where from three to five
24. Do you have any pets: nope
25. Do you want to change your name: No i like my name
26. What did you do for your last birthday: i went to work.. and skipped class and watched a movie with Tamara i think...
27. What time did you wake up today: noon! yes!
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: playing basketball
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: warm weather!
30. Last time you saw your mother: day after Christmas
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: how much money i make
32. What are you listening to right now: the TV
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom : Yup! quite a few times and quite a few Toms
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothin really...
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook
36. What’s your real name: Kelsey.....
37. Nicknames: Kels, Kelso, legs, mama legs,
38. Relationship Status: single as ever
39. Zodiac sign: Gemini
40. Male or female? um...what am i? which do i prefer? i am confused....
41. Primary School? Metcalf and Rivergold
42. Secondary School?: Coarsegold and Star Valley Junior high
43. High school/college?: Star Valley and Stevens High
44. Hair color: brown
45. Long or short: short
46. Height: 5'11"
47. Do you have a crush on someone? hmmm.....
48: What do you like about yourself? I think i am funny... :)
49. Piercings: ears once
50. Tattoos: nope
51. Righty or lefty: righty all the way

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: wisdom teeth
53. First piercing: ears...first and only
54. First best friend: Olivia Pogue
55. First sport you joined: Volleyball....
56. First vacation: Oregon coast on my fourth birthday
57. First scar: I dont remember
58. First pair of trainers: I dont remember

RIGHT NOW :
59. Eating: Nothin
60. Drinking: nothin
61. I'm about to: Fall asleep
62. Listening to: The TV
63. Waiting for: a text so i am not so bored

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? Yes! Some day!
65. Get Married? Yes! Some day!
66. Career: teacher

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: in a boy? EYES!! :) lips can be an added bonus though...
68. Hugs or kisses: dont know if i can choose
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous romance! :) im not usually a fan of the planned cheesy stuff...
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: My question for you is when is that an either--or? its usually both or neither....
73. Sensitive or loud: depends on the situation
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Blond, brown, or redhead? i tend to like the blondies or light brown but it really doesnt matter

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: nope
77. Been in a fist fight: Im a lover not a fighter. :)
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Never had either
79. Written a love note: mmm not a serious one... hahahaha
80. Broken someone's heart: I'm afraid so..
81. Been skydiving/other extreme sport: I want to try skydiving!!! that would be sweet!
82. Been arrested: nope
83. Turned someone down: guilty.... but you probably would have too!
84. Cried when someone died: yes...
85. Fallen for a friend? ........too many times i think.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: most of the time
87. Miracles: YES
88. Love at first sight: no
89. Heaven: yes!
90. Santa Claus: No...
91. Kiss on the first date: No!!!!
92. Angels: yes!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: nope... thats just wrong
95. Did you sing today? yup! :) i dont think i go a day without singing!
96. Ever cheated on somebody? Nope
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? hmm... some where cool and historical like Christs birth!
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? probably one of the days on my trips to Milwaukee! Or maybe a day that i was in Seattle
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? VERY
100. Have you missed somebody? i am almost always missing SOMEONE

Christmas?

I haven't necessarily been a scrooge this year but I haven't exactly been spreading the Christmas cheer. It just hasnt really connected with me and my brain that its Christmas so soon! Usually I have all these things telling me its Christmas and I have reason to be excited but this year its not really happening.

Before (even when I was a kid) I had winter break to look forward to. In college it was finishing all of my finals in order to go home and begin the Christmas festivities. I also always decorated my apt and my house in Rigby right after Thanksgiving. I didnt have ANY of that this year. No Finals... Not that I am complaining. I was too lazy to decorate at my parents house this year. My roommate decorated for Christmas before Thanksgiving.... So my brain just hasnt registered that Christmas is in a little less than two weeks. I am going home in like 4 days so hopefully once I am home it will start sinking in.

I think another reason my brain isn't regisitering it is because this year has gone so fast!!! Its been so crazy busy and so crazy good for the most part. My year as a whole is saved for another post... :) Merry Chirstmas my one lovely reader!

DASHBOARD!!!!!!!!!!

Yes you read correctly!!! Berkley and I went to see Dashboard confessional here in Salt Lake this weekend! It was SSSOOO awesome! Theres not much I can say other than it was awesome!!! We got these little shaker things that He passed out. We were pretty close to the front as well. I tried to upload a video but it was taking too long. I didnt have patience to wait for it today! HAHA Yay! I also went to Jon Schmidt. He was way cool as well! It was in Furniture Warehouse and we got to sit on couches while we listened to him! It was a fun weekend full of Berkley! I just love her! She is so great! We had too much fun together probably!

Cuz I know Heavenly Father loves me.

I just want to express my gratitude to my Heavenly Father in every possible way that I can. He has really blessed me SO much lately. MUCH MUCH MUCH more then I could ever deserve. It seems like just when I think I am gonna have to patient and worry he blesses me with what I need. I am especially grateful because I know it is rare to get what you want right when you want it. I dont mean to sound prideful. Its actually very humbling. I have been learning so much about trusting Him. Ever since I moved here it has just kind of been complete blindness and I have been trying really hard to let Him guide me. Things have turned out awesome so far! I feel like I really have a purpose for being in Salt Lake ( i have felt that i needed to be here for over a year and everything that has happened since being here is just confirming that.) I am getting a HUGE lesson in aligning my will with the Fathers. I am in no way perfect at it but I have definitely learned a lot and hopefully I will find out what my purpose in Salt Lake is. So this is just another way that I have been thanking Him for all of the amazing wonderful things that he has helped me with and given me. I have NO doubt in my mind whatsoever that my Heavenly Father loves me and he is watching out for me. He has a plan just for me and I am trying my hardest to follow that plan.