Thursday, February 25, 2010

100 Things You Should Know About Me.

I am really bored.... and putting things off.... so what do I do? A stupid survey.... Enjoy!

100 Things You Should Know About Me

Ever been arrested? Nope....never plan on it either. :)

Most hated chore on the household chore list? Laundry

Tell me about your first road trip in your first car. Road trippin it down to Utah to go to a Secondhand Serenade concert with Salena and my brother.

In life who has had the most influence on you? depends.... my mom, my sister, my close friends.

What do you consider your greatest achievement? Having a Bachelors at 22

What is the one thing for which you would most like to be
remembered for after your death? um..... my happiness? I need more time to think about it....

If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates? I'm so proud of you!

Do you have any phobias? Mice, snakes, spiders...bugs in general I suppose. Small crawly things....

If you were to perform in the circus, what would you do? high wire or the trapeze

If you could be one kind of beer which one would you be and why? I wouldn't.... Beer is gross.

If you were a kitchen appliance – what would you be and please make the sound of that appliance? a toaster....chooo (like when your toast pops up)

Tell me about a family member you are really proud of. My brother Shane. I admire how he makes up his own mind. He doesnt let people tell him what to do. Even though he made some goof ups he accepts his decision and tries to make the best of it. Right now he is working really hard for what he wants.

Do you have any relatives in jail? Not that I know of

If you had to, what relative would you lock up in the shed and why? There are a few cousins i wouldn't mind shoving in a shed for a while... I won't name names though....

What did you enjoy about school? I liked being at school and learning all of that stuff in class. I just hated the homework.

Name 1 thing you miss about being a kid. Not having to make important decisions.....

Who was your enemy or the bully when you were young? Brittany Bohner. She always said i had chubby cheeks and ears that stick out too far. Which is true....but I didn't like hearing it... hahaha

As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up? I kinda remember wanting to a nurse.

When and with whom was your first kiss? N/A

What extremely difficult life situation have you overcome and how did you do it? When I was younger I moved around a lot. It was really hard on me because I was so shy. I hated having to make new friends all over again. I just had to face my fears and make an effort to make new friends.

What is the most embarrassing thing ever to happen to you? uh.... i dont know if i can think of particular event.... there are too many...

Was there ever a time when you were frightened for your life? Yes. Can anyone say No to this question?

Which is the best vacation you’ve ever had? SEATTLE!!!!!!!!!!! SSSSSOOOOOOO fun!!! I wanna go back! I think it was mostly the company and the fact that we went on our own.

Which is the most funniest prank played on you or played by you? I am not a big pranker... Our FHE brother stole our burner nobs on the oven so that we couldnt turn on our stove for like a day and then they returned them frozen in a bowl of water.

What is the craziest thing you have ever done? i can't think of anything..... :(

List 1 thing you wish you could change about yourself: I wish I was more outgoing.

Who would you turn to if you were in desperate need of help? depends on what i needed help with. My brothers, My parents, my sisiter, Kelcie, Katelyn, Salena

If you could choose, how would you want to die? quickly

If you could change the world what would you do? Let everyone know how much Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ care about and love them. If everyone understood that I think it would fix a lot of problems in this world....

Name 1 thing you love about being an adult. Doing what I want when I want. IE eating ice cream for dinner, staying up late, going where ever i want....

Which would you rather have, $50,000 or true love? true love

What do you value most in life? My believes, my family and friends.

If you were one of two people left on this earth, and the other was of the same sex; would you go gay? HECK NO!!!!!!!!

Do you believe everything happens for a reason? To an extent. I think that we can learn something important from everything that happens. Everything that happens helps us learn.

What do you consider the most important event of your life so far? I dont know about MOST important...but moving to Utah has been very important.

What would be your dream job? In a way I have my dream job.... i just want to get paid more to do it. I love being a permanent sub/ teachers aide. Working with small groups of children and teaching where i dont have to plan or deal with the politics and side crap of teaching.

Have you ever lived or worked out of the country? nope

If you could have 3 wishes granted, what would they be? I could work at the same job i have now and get paid at least a normal teachers salary, my dad would be cured of his cancer, i could be more patient.

If you HAD to change your name, what would you change it to? uh.... its weird to think about changing your name. I think Nora or Lily is cute...

Name three exotic countries you would like to visit. exotic? Well i really want to go pretty much any where in Africa! is that exotic?

When you die - what part of your personality do you want to be remembered for? Didn't i already answer this question?

If you could add a single option to your car, what would you add? Sun roof?

If you could start your own restaurant, what would it be? a Pizza place

What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime? Have a family, be a mom and a wife

If you knew you were going to die in 24 hours, name three things you would do in the time you had left. Spend time with my family and friends. talking laughing reminiscing

If you could go on a road trip with any person (dead or alive), who would you choose and where would you go? Pretty much any one willing to go! I love road trips!

What is the craziest thing you have ever done? i couldn't think of anything.... remember?

Tell me about your first road trip in your first car....i already did......

What crazy fads were popular when you were a teenager?
in middle school it was they white eye-liner/eye shadow..... low rise jeans... i dunno it wasnt that long ago....

Sunday, February 21, 2010

The worst part? or maybe the best?

I think the worst part about finding out about my dad is that I kinda knew it was coming.

Almost exactly this time last year my Grandma Asplund was not doing very well. I decided that with the stress of school, dumping my boyfriend, and loosing my grandma I decided to get a blessing. My really good friend Austin gave it to me. He knew me really well and I had talked to him a lot about all of it.

I still VIVIDLY remember sitting in his living room and him giving me the blessing. In the blessing he said "This is a hard time in your life. The trials in your life now are preparing you for trials in the future." At the time I thought "oh crap whats that supposed to mean?" Probably a month or so later I found out that my dad had Oral cancer. I automatically remembered that line in the blessing. Over time it kinda faded to the back of my brain....but now here it is....So far to the front of my brain its pretty much all I think about.... In fact that line just kind of runs over and over and over in my brain.... My grandmas death was preparing me for my Dads. Maybe since I had more warning with my dad I can prepare myself? So maybe its good? We'll see.....

Thursday, February 18, 2010

To my Daddy....

I got this email from my Dad.

The doc said today that my cancer is incurable. I have 4 to 6 months to live. Chemo might give me 18 months but they would be sick nasty months. I said, just let me die. They will be sending in Hopis to keep me pain free and to let me die in piece. I am excited to finally feel an end to all this ....

I only cry when I think about what it means. My sister put it perfectly when she said " I just have to hold tight to what I know so I don't drown in what I feel. "

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Besties



This is my blog dedicated to the one and only Katelyn. This girl is one of my favorite people on this entire planet. As cheesy as it is, she completes me. She can make me laugh like NO one else can! She thinks I am funny! Which is enough to make me like you right there.... For some reason, things that I have a hard time telling anyone else just come flying out of my mouth as if it were every day conversation. The best part is, we don't have to talk on the phone every day, we don't have to know EVERY detail of each others life but we are still best of friends. When we get together its like we have never been apart. We honestly couldn't be more opposite. We have both said that unless we were roommates we probably wouldn't even be friends. I really think it was meant to be, because we have become such good good friends. No one understands me like she does. Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE needs a friend like Katelyn is to me!

Friday, February 5, 2010

Is it over yet? Can I open my eyes?

I don't know if I am blogging a lot because I have a lot on my mind or if its because I am bored out of my mind. Maybe a mixture of both.

I am just feeling frustrated.... and helpless..... All I can do is tell my parents I am sorry and I wish I could help more. Its more frustrating because it says in my patriarchal blessing specifically that I need to help my parents in their times of need. This is an obvious time of need, but I dont feel like I am helping much. All I can do is let them know that I love them and that I am here for them. It doesn't seem like enough. I wish there was more. Unfortunately there is not.

I don't claim to know a whole lot about life. In fact I am sure I still have a TON left to learn about it. I dont mean to sound as if I am doubting....but I am genuinely curious as to the reason that this is happening. I think that things happen for a reason, or at least there is always something that you can learn from what happens. So, what am I supposed to learn from this? I am a learning it? or am I way off. What are my parents supposed to learn? How can I help them learn it? Or can I? I guess my biggest question for the Lord is How can I help more? What can I do to make the best of the situation, specifically for the people around me. As I said in posts before, I am not worried about me. I am worried about everyone else feeling worried, and feeling pain, frustration, scared, stress etc etc etc. Any way....thats just whats on my mind for the time being.....

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Strength in a Moment of Weakness

An update on my dad.... They are fairly certain that his cancer has spread into his lungs. At first they didn't think that he had any more cancer in his face and neck, but now they are thinking the sore on his chin is cancer as well. If it is indeed cancer like they suspect, my dad will start chemo treatments very soon. Also, he will have to have a reconstructive surgery where they will take skin from his leg and put it on his neck in hopes that his neck will heal up better. He is hanging in there. He is a trooper. He has a giant bandage on his chin all the time. He never really feels good and sleeps a lot.

My mom.... is a basket case. She has never been the calmest lady ever. She tends to stress out ten times worse than any normal person. As if she wasnt stressed enough, her car engine blew up. So, now, she has one more thing to stress about. She hates her job, but has to have some kind of income because my dad can't work. and her job also provides my dads insurance. Because of my poor stressed parents I decided they needed a little extra support. I took the first of the week off because I was sick, and then decided to start my trip to Idaho a few days early. Needless to say, the environment in my house is not exactly a cheerful, happy one.

Through all of the stress and chaos and sadness I am SO grateful for a gospel that allows me to feel peace. I have absolutely no doubt what-so-ever that my Heavenly Father loves me. If anything I have felt it more now than EVER. Through many different ways. I can't tell you the countless number of people that I can tell care so much about me. That alone tells me that Heavenly Father loves me. He knows just who can help me right now. I know that the people in my life are there for a reason. I have been able to see how much they care about me and that what is important to me is important to them. It means SSOOO much to me. I have gotten a priesthood blessing that brought me SO much peace as well. I am not scared about me. I am not doubting the Lord at all. I know that he has a plan for me and i KNOW for a fact that he is taking care of me.

I am scared for my mom and dad. I just pray and hope that they know what I know. I hope that they can feel the peace that I feel from my Heavenly Father. I just wish that I could make it better. I don't want my dad to feel sick any more. I know they are stressed beyond all reason. I wish there was more I could do to help them. The hardest part is just having to sit back and watch.

Any way.... Thank you so much all of you for all of your support. I appreciate just knowing that you are thinking about me, and care about me.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

urbandictionary.com

My brother posted this thing on facebook that said to look up your name on Urban dictionary.com and type in your name. So, I did and this was the first entry. I dont know what you guys think but I think its a surprisingly accurate description of me... but there you go.... just for fun.

A very smart, sweet girl with lots of things on her mind. She may seem distracted a lot and that's because she is most of the time. Very creative and sometimes shy, she always has to have music on. silence is her only weakness. She doesn't think she's attractive but in reality she's the most gorgeous thing you'll ever meet. often spaces out when near windows. always contemplating something. sugar junkie. very pale and doesn't care. easy to get along with. everyone loves her. stands up for her friends and would never hurt anyone intentionally. cares too much. picks the wrong crowd. not easily influenced. has soo much planned for her. remember her, she'll be widely known soon. if you fall in love with a kelsey don't ever let her go. she likes playfighting. looks like the nost innocent person alive but can be the sexiest, kinky little thing if you get her to that stage. likes being pushed to do better. always looking after those around her.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Temples!

So, ever since I have moved to Salt Lake, Kelcie and I have really tried to go to the temple as often as we can. When Becky joined us we decided to start fulfilling our goal of going to all the temples in the Valley. So far we have been to Salt Lake, Draper and Jordan River. Still on the list are Manti, Logan, Bountiful, and a few others i think.... We also decided that we want to take pictures at each of the temples we go to...but so far we only got pictures at the Draper Temple... The Jordan River's gates were closed. And we decided to get Salt Lake on another day. But here are some of our sweet pictures we got at the Draper Temple


We tried to get a cool jumping picture.....well we aren't jumping but I think this is a freaking sweet picture!!!
All of us with our amazing photographers... :)
Yay Draper Temple!!! VERY beautiful!