Kiddos

Some days I really really love my job... other days I never want to go back. It funny though, how much kids can teach you if you let them. Thats probably what I love most about my job. A few random kiddo stories from lately...

• I can't remember what we were talking about now but for some reason I told them they were too young to have boyfriends and girlfriends and then someone piped up and said well HE has one! and the student that was pointed out said NO!!! It's just a pretend one!!! haha it was pretty hard not to laugh about that one
• One of my sweetest most innocent girls came up to me yesterday with something in her hands. When I looked I was shocked to see it was the LEG to her desk! She looked terrified and said Miss H? This fell off... I asked her how it happened thinking some kid sat on her desk or something and she said nothing... i was just doing my work when it fell and hit my leg. By that time the other students has seen the look of shock on my face and were all laughing and freaking out as much as I was. So incredibly random... it literally just FELL off...
• I had a very bitter sweet experience a while ago. One of my boys was suddenly crying. I asked him to come over and talk to me and tell me what was going on. He told me he missed his dad. When I asked him where he was now he said in Heaven... he killed himself when i was a baby. (my heart sank) but i had a very tender opportunity to cheer him up. (I could kind of relate) I asked him  what he thought his dad was doing now. And he said well he is in Heaven... and i said yeah! he is! and do you think he is happy in Heaven? as the boy thought about it he said yeah... i bet he is! and Then I said you know, i bet he is SO happy there! And he is always watching down on you and is so proud of what you are doing! Whenever you get said i want you to think about how happy he is now! ( almost exactly what I do when I get sad about my dad--although mine is probably a little more in depth because I don't think this kid is LDS.) But the more i talked to him about it, the smile on his face got bigger and i could tell that even though he missed his dad, he could be ok. I have to admit i had a REALLY hard time not crying my eyes out... 
• I cant remember if i have said this story here or not so i will say it again. I had one student ask me as we were lining up for lunch "So, what do you do for a living?" I am sure i looked utterly confused when i said "um.... I'm a teacher..."  light bulb for the student--"Oh.........." with a look like yeah... i guess that does make sense.....
• Not too long after that a student asked why i was mean... or something like that... and I said "because this is my job".and one boy yells out "OH!!!! Is that why you wear clothes like that all the time?" Kind of offended i said "clothes like what?" he said "clothes like..... that...." and pointed to what i was wearing that day. Still confused I said "Huh??? Do I wear weird clothes or something?" He just stared at me like I was supposed to know what he meant, so I dropped it. 
• It's like they don't realize that teaching is my job....

Any way... thats all I can think of for now...Teaching: what an emotional roller coaster!

Dream house.... So I'm a little late...

I Love brick houses!! they are so cute! like this one!



I Love this kitchen! I just found pictures of stuff I like...and you can get an idea! haha :)



and I need at least one of these in my dream house




A cute and calm room for my and my dream husband (remember we are dreaming here)



SSOOO cute!!! I love the colors in this living room! and a fireplace is a must!!



wouldn't mind one of these....



Giant walk in closet? alright... you convinced me!



well there you have it!! an over view of the basics of what my dream house would look like. I didn't include kid rooms cuz who knows if I will have boys or girls or what they will like! hahaha :)

Pictures I Love!!!

 

Cheeser Spenner

Drooly Spencer

  

Gracie Lou Freebush

Scooter

Spiderman Scott

Super Kids

Me and the goofiest girl

Liverbutt and I at Disneyland

O Jerusalem - Greg Olsen


Christ with a Child



Rexburg Temple

There are more.... but i am too lazy to find more.... :)

Goals

Short Term

• go to the temple AT LEAST once a month preferably more
• continue to improve in teaching
• Improve my patience
• improve my faith
• be more grateful
• serve more 

Long term

• continually prepare to someday (hopefully soon) get my endowments 
• go back to school some day and get my masters
• get married and have kids
• be a stay at home mom
• get and stay out of debt (don't worry it was only for school)

What I believe!

Today's post is all about what I believe. I believe in my savior and redeemer, Jesus Christ. I believe that we have modern day prophets that lead and guide us. I believe that if we live worthily (by guide lines set forth) we can return to live with Heavenly Father and continue to learn and progress. and also by living worthily we can receive our own revelations from God. He loves us with a perfect love that we don't come near to comprehending. We have agency to choose, but he is always there trying to guide us to the path he wants for us.  I believe in the priesthood and that it is the power of God.

I believe that people are mostly good. (maybe I'm too trusting) I believe I can achieve whatever I really set my mind to. I believe that children are our future (HA! but no, really) I believe that sometimes children know  more than I do about somethings, or at least  that they often shed a different light and perspective that adults don't usually see. I Believe a lot of stuff... this is just a brief overview! :)

Favorite TV shows

• Glee
• House
• So You Think You Can Dance
• Modern Family
• the Office
• What Not to Wear

Fears

OOPS! Day late!!!  writing on your blog every day is exhausting....

I am afraid of...

• spiders/mice/creepy crawly things....
• getting kidnapped/murdered (sometimes i can't sleep at night cuz i'm sure someone is gonna sneak in....i know i am paranoid.)
• getting in a car wreck
• things I can't control
• failure
• things that jump out (I'm super jumpy)
• intimidating people

IPOD on shuffle!

1. Untouchable - Taylor Swift
2. Merry Chirstmas Darling - Glee Cast (I just bought it... don't think I listen to Chirstmas music before Thanksgiving)
3. To Sir With Love - Glee Cast
4. The Sound of Settling - Death Cab for Cutie
5. Quiet - Lights
6. Don't Let Go - David Archuleta
7. Living in Your Letters - Dashboard
8. Times Like These - Foo Fighters
9. Matters of Blood and Connection - Dashboard
10. Like A Prayer - Glee

Dang... I was excited for this one...and its a little more lame that i was hoping... I have way better songs than this!

A Place I have traveled

Um... probably the coolest place I have been is Seattle!! I loved it there! It was so green and lush! I also loved the feel of the city (even though there were lots of bums) I loved the bay/harbor and the city scape(especially from the space needle) One of my best friends Katelyn and I drove from Idaho and spent two nights in a hotel.  The hotel actually turned out to be pretty nice and we had so much fun together. Probably my favorite vacation either. I don't feel like posting pictures... look in May of 2009 to see my pictures... :) and the full story!

Favorite Movies

• Singing in th Rain
• White Christmas
• Princess Bride
• My Best Friend's Wedding

I can't think of any more... those are some of them...

A song that makes me cry

Songs are very near and dear to my heart. And i have several songs that I have cried to. Listening to music really seems to let me face my realities and come to terms with things going on in my life, so I have cried to a lot of songs. BUT  one that always makes me cry, almost always... Abide with me--166. We sang it at my dad's funeral. Plus it just strikes a chord with me. Also I Know that my Redeemer lives. Also sang at my dad's funeral, but I cried at that one even before that. there are lots of hymns that when played on the right day will make me cry.....

Things that Make me happy!!

 Spencer!

 Grace and Scott!

My family in general! 

 laughing

 sleeping (and sleeping in)

the temple

Having my alone time.

FALL!!!! ( I got sick of trying to find pictures)

Eating yummy food!

Being with or talking to good/old friends

Things I am looking forward to

• Thanksgiving break!
• Christmas!
• My  next off track time
• Harry Potter movie!
• Seeing the Whitings at the end of December!
• Spring

Family!!!

Do I get to include my niece and nephews? maybe I will in one lump....

Daddy: The best Daddy a girl could have hoped for. He was very hard working and sacrificed a lot for our family. He loved to  tease and joke. His family was very important to him and so was the gospel. I am a lot like him. He was organized to a T and knew just where everything was. He also enjoyed his alone time. He loved sweets and Dr. Pepper.... maybe thats where I get it? He also loved anything horses!!! And even though he is no longer on Earth, I think about him and miss him every single day. I am so grateful for the Daddy he is and was to me and for his amazing example and all he taught me.

Momma: What a lady! She is also very strong and sacrificed a lot for our family. She was always a wonderful mother. She makes wonderful meals, helps you with whatever you need and best of all is great to talk to. She has been through a lot and I really admire her for it. She loves to read and is artistic even though she doesnt seem to think so. She is loving and would do anything for just about any one. She is funny and loves to laugh.

Whitney: My big sis.... I always looked up to her (still do). She was always perfect in my eyes and I wanted to be just like her! She majored in Elementary Education at BYU and taught 2 years before she decided to be a  stay at home mom. She is one fantastic mother to three adorable little kiddos (my favorite ones). She is crafty beyond all believe.... I am always amazed at the next crafty thing she makes. She is hilarious and I can always seem to talk to her for hours.

Shane: He always does his own thing no matter what everyone else thinks. I have really admired him for that. He isn't afraid to take a risk. Once he has made up his mind, he does it! He is very smart and informed. He reads a lot and is opinionated, but because he has researched it. He is also pretty sensitive, even though he doesn't want you to know that....He is also the type that would do anything for you the second you asked. He once came and picked me up in the middle of the night when my car died.....

Lon: He has a heart of gold. He is very trusting and loving. He would give you just about anything or do just about anything for you. He often thinks of himself last. He is very friendly and gets along well with just about everyone. I was always ( and still sometimes) known as "Lon's little sister" He is studying to be a physical therapist at the U. He is a big Utes fan but an even bigger Wyoming Cowboys fan.

Things that stress me out

• the unknown
• people not listening/ignoring me
• car problems
• loans........ew.....
• driving in the snow
• not spending time by myself
• not getting enough sleep

Something to keep me busy!

One of my favorite blog's to read (Mrs. Emme Boushka) is doing this same thing. I thought it was fun and a good way to keep posts going on my not-so-exciting life.... :) I hope you enjoy!


Day 1- Self portrait picture and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 2- Something that stresses you out
Day 3- Your parents and siblings
Day 4- Something you're looking forward to
Day 5- Pictures of things that make you happy
Day 6- A song that makes you cry (or nearly and why)
Day 7- Favourite movies
Day 8- A place you've travelled to
Day 9- Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 10- Something you're afraid of
Day 11- Favourite tv shows
Day 12- What you believe
Day 13- Goals
Day 14- Some pictures you love
Day 15- Pictures of your dream house

1. This is kind of an old picture i guess but we went to Texas Roadhouse for my 23rd birthday and they made me sit on the saddle while they sang to me... YAY!
2. I find it funny that often times people are surprised when they find out I have strong opinions...it has happened one more than one occasion
3. It still weirds me out to see my name as the official teacher for my kiddos....even though I have been their teacher for close to 4 months.
4. I love organizing things... though you wouldn't know that by looking at my room...
5. I hate being cold
6. I love the fall and everything that comes with it... minus the snow....
7. I am not athletic in the slightest bit. and if I didn't need to work out to be healthy i probably wouldn't. Not something i enjoy!
8. i love music! I love finding that songs that fits your life  in the moment!
9. I love sleeping!
10. I love being with kids, even though they make me exhausted.
11. I love milk!
12. I don't have a plan for the rest of my life... I'm flying by the seat of my pants! Who knows where life will take me.
13. Many many things interest me...but none of them interest me long enough to sustain my attention.... (ADHD???? you tell me)
14. I'm quiet until you get me talking... I'm not usually one to start a conversation until I know you well.
15. for some stupid reason i type "my" when i am trying to type "me"... I have done it like three times just in this post.....and when i text sometimes i type "i" instead of "a"

YAY!!!! Look for the next posts in up coming days!

Favorite Things to Teach

I was asked recently what my favorite thing to teach was. I told the person at the time that I really couldn't decide. The whole reason I went into to teaching in the first place is because I couldn't see one single subject interesting me long enough to keep my attention for longer than a few years. With teaching the subject matter changes all the time. I get a good variety....so What is my favorite??? After teaching PE on Wednesday I decided its my favorite thing to teach! I know most of you are probably thinking WHAT!?!?! Kelsey!? She is the most uncoordinated person I know! She hates sports! and you are absolutely right! I am! and I do! I don't enjoy teaching PE for the athletic value. It's not that I love Physical Education by any stretch of the imagination.... It is purely and simply the entertainment value.

This probably makes me sound like a terrible person....but watching kids try is SSSOOO hysterical!!! (Dually noted that I was probably the kid that my PE teacher was laughing at....) I have my kids warm up every morning we have PE. They line up in the groups and then we do exercises across the gym and back. We skip, jump, gallop, run, crawl, bounce a ball, etc etc. They kids are SO determined they have this look of complete concentration on their face and they do their best to hurry as fast as they can (because everything is a race in fourth grade whether your teacher says it is or not). I wish I were better at describing their awkwardness, yet determination. SSSOOOO funny! Just imagine a kid "crawling" across the floor on his hands and feet....bum in the air... legs and arms swinging wide......HAHAHAHA I just about die laughing every Wednesday morning! If you ever want to come to my classroom... I encourage you to come Wednesday Morning and have PE with us!

My second favorite thing to teach is SCIENCE!!! The kids just drink it up! They ask so many questions and so into it that it is easy to teach! Plus, its so hands on and visual and that is how I learn best! I have always thought science is cool though... it's probably always been my strong point.

My LEAST favorite thing to teach? Writing.... Maybe because I enjoy writing. I am really terrible with grammar and punctuation...but writing is my therapy.  I really enjoy it...but its something that is really hard for me to teach. I think I just want to turn their paper into how I want it to sound. and i get frustrated when it doesn't.... I always seem to want them to be more advanced writers than they are. I also want to spend enough time with each of them to help them develop their ideas...but then i don't have enough time to get to everyone!  In short...i just get frustrated when trying to teach them to write.

Any way... the life of a teacher! Highly entertaining....yet incredibly frustrating! We do the best we can!

Life as of Late....

Honestly, the words from that One Republic song, Secrets, come to mind when I think about my life right now.

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess....


I basically do the same thing every day! But ya know... I am completely fine with it! My life right now is good! I couldn't ask for more. I feel very blessed to have a job and be living in such an awesome place as Salt Lake! I truly LOVE it here! It's like Salt Lake was made for me! 


I have been a teacher for 9 weeks now! Can you believe it? Cuz I know I can't! I am now officially off track and get to party for the next three weeks! I am starting this fantastic break by flying to see my sister and her family in Tucson! We are leaving Monday morning and driving back to Salt Lake. I'm so excited to get to party with some of my most favorite people! 


On to other things...things that have been on my mind lately....(i like to pretend that I have deep thoughts now and again) I have just been thinking about how if you are doing what you are supposed to life just works out!! I moved to Salt Lake a year ago... I had known that I needed/wanted to be here two years  before that! Ever since I have gotten here things have totally and completely just worked out! Of course I have worried (thats what I do, I got it from my mother) but it always just comes together. I know it's because I have followed what I know to be right and true. Money wise, Job wise, friend wise, family wise EVERYTHING has been iffy, and scary at one point since I have moved here, but then suddenly and inexplicably things suddenly and completely work out. It has been a really great experience for me, because I am such a planner. I hate the unknown, I hate not knowing where my life was going to go! I came here to do student teaching and then I had NO plans for my life...but like i said, i did what i know is right and things completely fell into place. It has been such a perfect experience to learn to trust my Heavenly Father. I have had to let go of a lot of things, and I have grown so much.


I think I need to take that advice in other, aspects of my life, because I seem to worry and over think things.... As long as I am doing what I am supposed to things will fall into place. Thankfully, for me, they always have eventually....  

Things Teachers Won't Tell You

My roommate Berkley showed me this! and it is perfect! and so true!!! Just wanted to share!

A look inside a teacher's mind could help you understand lesson plans and maybe even guide your child to perform better.

1. If we teach small children, don’t tell us that our jobs are “so cute” and that you wish you could glue and color all day long.

2. I’m not a marriage counselor. At parent-teacher conferences, let’s stick to Dakota’s progress, not how your husband won’t help you around the house.


3. We’re sick of standardized testing and having to “teach to the test.”

4. Kids used to go out and play after school and resolve problems on their own. Now, with computers and TV, they lack the skills to communicate. They don’t know how to get past hurt feelings without telling the teacher and having her fix it.

5. When I hear a loud belch, I remember that a student’s manners are a reflection of his parents’.

6. Your child may be the center of your universe, but I have to share mine with 25 others.


7. Please help us by turning off the texting feature on your child’s phone during school hours.

8. Guys who dribble a ball for a couple of hours a game can make up to $20 million a year. We educate future leaders and make about $51,000 a year.

9. We take on the role of mother, father, psychologist, friend, and adviser every day. Plus, we’re watching for learning disabilities, issues at home, peer pressure, drug abuse, and bullying.

10. Kids dish on your secrets all the time—money, religion, politics, even Dad’s vasectomy.

11. Please, no more mugs, frames, or stuffed animals. A gift card to Starbucks or Staples would be more than enough. A thank-you note: even better.

12. We love snow days and three-day weekends as much as your kid does.

13. The students we remember are happy, respectful, and good-hearted, not necessarily the ones with the highest grades.

Kid Stories

I really haven't had very many kid stories yet. I have been teaching about four weeks now. I DO have a couple though... So here ya go!

• On one of the first days of school we were coloring a few things and a little boy came up to me and said "do I have marker on my face?" and when I turned around to look he had big long strips all over his  face! It was so hard not to laugh! I just said yes, please go wash it off. and then laughed as he ran to the bathroom.
  
• During a spelling test one of the kids farted really loud. All the kids just turn to see my reaction. and then i hear a kid say WHOA!!!!! (at  least point I'm thinking oh no....he is going to embarrass the other student) Did someone just cough???? HAHA I busted up laughing and so did all the kiddos

• There was a really bad storm outside and then a HUGE crash. All my kids started freaking out and yelling and screaming! and then they announced on the intercom that someone with a yellow Cadillac needed to contact the office. THEN all my kids were like COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DID IT EXPLODE!?!?! Did the lightning hit it?? it took a good fifteen mins to calm them back down and focus them again

• My mom came into my classroom to help. I told them that she is Mrs. Hokanson and I was Miss Hokanson. This made them realize that Miss meant I was not married. Then a student was like why aren't you married?!?!?! and all of the kids were just staring at me waiting to hear my answer. They could not believe that I was not married. I just said something like Where does it say I have to be married right now? I am still young guys! and then the same kid rose his hand and said You should go on one of those.....date things... hahahahahahaha it was so funny cuz he said it like I'm not really sure what that is....but i know you do it to get married....

Kids are so funny.... Sometimes the way their minds work really surprise you!!! The best part of teaching!

Cool temple experience

So, yesterday was probably my worst teaching day ever! I totally lost my patience and yelled at the kids. They were being so bad! And i was not feeling well at all. So, after yesterday I needed something to calm me down, and recharge my batteries. Beck and I decided to go to the temple when we woke up. We were nervous considering it was Saturday. We thought for sure it was going to be super busy. Luckily enough it was not hardly busy at all. We were in and out in less than an hour.

Any way, I get my turn in the font, the guy baptizes me for five names, just like always, and I am going to get out and one of the witnesses says to me, "The names you just did are from the Ukraine." And I thought "Oh ok.... cool. Random, but cool." but then he finished by saying "They are preparing these names for the Ukraine temple that will be dedicated on the 24th" I thought that was pretty cool that I got to have part in that! Kinda cool that those names will be sent the Ukraine temple and be finished there! Maybe its not so cool as I think it is....but it made me feel a little special! :)

And, on a random side note.... I just want to say how wonderfully awesome and fabulous the temple is. This morning I felt like life was pretty drab and I didn't want to go back to school on Monday, and that i wasn't cut out to be a teacher....and now after the temple I just feel so calm and peaceful and like I could go back to school. I know Heavenly Father loves me so much. I can tell I am doing what I am supposed to because of the way he blesses me. I am so grateful that he has a plan for me, and helps me see I'm on the right track, EVEN THOUGH that track isn't always rainbows and butterflies! :) I love the gospel and the temple!

exhausted....

Holy cow! Who would have thought that this job would be so tiring!! I come home about 6:30 every day and feel like I could go straight to bed. I am not used to going all day long any more. My kids so far are pretty good. I have a bunch of good good kids and just a couple that about drive me crazy! For the most part school is good though. I love my principal and the people I work with are really great too! I am not sick of the drive yet.... so for now I am still planning on living where I am for a while. I have been so incredibly blessed! I feel stressed and worn out...but for the most part I know that is just temporary. Life is good!!! Heavenly Father blesses me so much!

My classroom!

I finally got into my classroom on Friday! I was SO so excited! It seems so unreal! When I got in there the first day, the teacher that was there before me was a MESS! and left it all for ME to deal with! What a nice guy huh? So basically all I did on Friday was go through his stuff and decide what I wanted and then throw away everything else. Thankfully the teacher that is right next door to me came and helped. She is SSOO wonderful! I am still definitely feeling overwhelmed. Maybe even more so now... I almost feel like i dont know where to start but still have SSSOO much to do that i need to get on it! Hopefully i get a lot done in the next week! WOO!!!

Job!!!!

So...in case you haven't heard yet... I GOT A JOB! I will be teaching 4th grade at Bacchus Elementary in Kearns! It is a year round school so I start REALLY soon! It is pretty intense and intimidating! I do pretty well at not panicking until i start thinking about it. I drove out to my school today and saw the class list that was posted. It was SSSOOO weird to see "Miss Hokanson's Fourth Grade Class A-Track" It really makes me think HOLY COW who really trusts me to do this?? I am very excited don't get me wrong...but it is very intimidating! I am a TEACHER!!! WHOA! I spent all this time just wishing I was a teacher already and now that I am it's kind of scary!!! Thankfully I met wonderful teachers at Redwood that have helped me SO SO SO much! Thank goodness! I'm sure you will get plenty of updates about my class and how things are going! Who knows maybe I will start a blog just for my class!

Arizona!!

Well....Here's a big hooray for being LAZY! because I still havent posted about Arizona... And I am feeling kinda like a bum. So I am going to give just a brief synopsis of my trip and then post a link to the pictures on facebook. It takes to long to upload pictures on here! HA :)

Arizona was VERY fun! and also VERY hot! I am a big fan of Road trips so of course it was fun for me! :) My mom and I left Utah mid day and decided we wanted to try to make it to the Grand Canyon and see it on our way down.... BUT we decided to go to the Southern Rim...which meant we had to drive all the way around it to get there.... needless to say we didnt make it. So we kept on going to Flagstaff and stayed the night there. From there Tuscon was just a few short hours further the next day. Our time in Arizona basically consisted of playing with my three favorite kiddos and helping my sister get her house situated. Which was still fun! I love ANY time i get to spend with her and her family. While I was there my sister also got me hooked on glee!!!! I LOVE it!!! I stayed up til three one night watching it while i was there!!

We made lots of trips to Lowes for things like blinds, paint, odds and ends to fix up minor things in the house. We also found a rug that my sister fell in love with. While she was debating on getting it my niece ran back and forth under the hanging rugs letting them woosh over her head. When we left she suddenly started saying her head was burning.... She had gotten a rug burn on her head from running under all the rugs! HAHAHA I laughed forever!

We also spent a lot of time painting. We painted her family room and living room and Kitchen. All in all nothing TOO super exciting but WELL worth it! My niece and nephews are SO funny and i love each one of them for their own personalities!!

Grace--She is SSOO smart!! I kept being so surprised because she can read as good as if not better then many of my fourth graders. AND she could do math quickly in her head that my fourth graders couldn't do with paper. My fourth graders are pretty low...BUT Grace is only six years old! She is also a ham. She LOVES getting attention. Which also means she is QUITE the drama queen! I remember one night laughing me head off because she got sent to her room and was screaming things like "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND ME!" "YOU DONT LISTEN TO ME" "I never get what I want!" "I'm never talking or coming out of my room again" I feel bad for my sister and brother-in-law when she is a teenager! Hopefully she calms down a lot by then for their sake!

Scott--another genius child!! He always has this way of making me laugh! He is definitely his own kid! He loves anything transformers and can play with them for hours! Just like me, he can be bribed to do just about anything for fruit snacks and cheez-its! He is cuddly but only when HE wants to be. Whenever we were watching TV or watching a movie he would find some way to snuggle up to me. When i was laying on ground on my stomach he came and laid on my back for the whole movie! He is so adorable! When he gets excited he will just sit in pure amazement. We went to see Toy Story three he was like hopping into the theater and then didnt move at all the WHOLE movie... just like stared wide eyed at the screen the whole time! So funny!

Spencer--He is probably the most chill and happy baby you will ever meet. He LOVES attention and is already a people person! As long as he is where everyone else is (and fed) he is happy! He is so easy to make smile. Some of the faces he pulls and his chubby cheeks always remind us of my dad! I actually looked a lot like him when i was a baby as well. He is a chunk! I LOVE chubby babies!! But my arms would get SO sore after holding him for a while.

Any way.... I have the best niece and nephews ever! They are so adorable and can always make me smile!! When we left Tuscon we were determined to go see the Grand Canyon and actually made it! Woo hoo! It was SO gorgeous! we drove along it for a while and got some awesome views! My camera only lasted for two pictures though.... Bummer!!!

Well.... needless to say My trip to Arizona was awesome!!! and a much needed vacation!

Here is the link to a few pics

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2169325&id=193303103&l=3738481e3d

It's not a DREAM any more!

I had a job interview today for a first grade position in West Valley. I was SUPER nervous! Thankfully the teachers at Redwood and friend have been prepping me and really helping me out. At the same time they were making me REALLY nervous! So I got to the school and said a little prayer as I walked in. I started telling them about myself and said I grew up in Freedom, Wyoming the principal's jaw dropped and said NO WAY!!!!!!!!!! FREEDOM!?!?!?! I grew up there!!!! It was SSOO random and crazy! We sat and talked for a while! and She knows my grandpa! Hopefully that gets me an in!!!

Any way... the real point of this post is to say how crazy life is!! Having an interview and thinking about being an actual teacher has made me kind of reflect on life over the last fourish years. When I first started college (it seems like two weeks ago...) I thought my dream of being a teacher would never actually happen. I figured I would get married before I actually taught, or I would end up hating it and never actually teach. I don't even know...but for some reason I felt like I would never make it to where I am now! But here I am! I finished student teaching and I'm looking for a job!!! My new favorite song by Paramore says I'd never trade it in cuz I've always wanted this! It's not a dream any more! Its worth fighting for! and thats totally how i feel!! And You know...even if I dont get the job I feel really good about it! I feel like I did my best in the interview and I know that Heavenly Father is taking care of me! If I don't make it in there, He needs me somewhere else! If I do make in there, HOORAY for the blessings he gives me!

PS Watch for my next update! I have pics and stories from Arizona I just havent taken the time to upload the pictures and write it... So it's on the way!

Summer

My summer has officially started! But the strange thing is that I am already bored.... Student teaching and working at Redwood kept me SO busy... I never had much time to myself. I have gotten used to being that way. And actually enjoyed it. I really like staying busy! I would plan every second of my day until bed time. And now..... I have ALL day to do whatever I want. There's no one even in my apt!! It's really weird. It actually making me really anxious because I am so used to being busy. I just feel like i should be doing something all the time! It's weird for me to just sit. Not to mention my other halves are gone. Weird.... Its funny/sad how you just get used to things and kind of end up taking them for granted.

BUT I am headed to Arizona TOMORROW!!! and I am so excited! :) I get about a week and a half to hang out with some of my favorite people in the whole world! I think it will be good for me to spend a little time away from Salt Lake and get out of my apt. I love Salt Lake...but I need a vacation! I am excited to get out of town but I'm sure i will be excited to get back as well! Yay!

What's New in My Life?

I don't even really know what this post is going to be about... But I am in a blogging mood.

What's new in my life? Not a whole lot.... Still no job for next Fall... I have applied to Alpine, Canyons, Salt Lake, Granite, Davis, Jordan, and still planning on applying for Ogden and Murray... That is a TON of jobs that I have applied for... No calls for interviews yet, but many said they haven't started interviewing yet.

I have decided I am not going to work this summer... Which could be good or bad... I haven't decided yet. I have enough money hopefully... I am going to go to see my sister in Arizona for almost two weeks! that should give me more to blog about! I have also decided to stay in my apt for the summer. All by myself!!! But my Landlord was VERY nice and let me stay in my apt for JUST what i am paying! Thank goodness!!! I won't have to move all my stuff just yet. Well.... that is all I can think of.... in other words my life is kinda lame right now.... HA :)

Oh the memories!

I had a really funny memory of my dad today!! It's kinda a long story that may not be funny to any one but my family....but it definitely made me laugh and remember how wonderful my papa was.

So, we have the joke in our family....I dont know if i have it quite right...but something along the lines of there was a button in the truck that said "cargo light" and someone asked what the button did...and my dad said "OH! when you push it the car go light and when you push it again the car go heavy" HAHA ok....maybe its not that funny....BUT today I was helping with the CRT's at my school and one of the questions said something like "What does cargo mean?" Which reminded me of the story...but then they best part was one of the answers was tires! HA and thats the one the student chose! I bet my dad was whispering in their ear! HAHAHA I had a really hard time not laughing!! haha funny....at least to me.... My dad was a funny guy like that!

On my mind....

I feel like this life is full of turning points, points in that you have to make a choice to either turn TO Heavenly Father or turn away from him. Really, I guess what is what life is all about. It's something I have been thinking a lot about since my dad died. I very easily could have chosen to turn away from Heavenly Father, used this as an excuse to blame Him and say it's all His fault. Had I done that, I would still be absolutely miserable. And would be for a long time to come. Thankfully, I knew where to turn. I knew who to trust. Not to say dealing with death is not hard, but knowing what I know, and having the gospel background made it so much easier. Even though I feel some of the deepest pain and sorrow (even a month later), I am also able to feel some of the deepest joys and happiness. Whenever I get sad and miss my dad I think about where he is and what he is doing now! It's amazing to think about. He is healthy now, and happy! He is doing the Lords work! My te stimony of the atonement has grown to new heights. Our Savior died not just to allow us to repent, but to heal us. And to help us in ways that I am sure I probably don't even realize yet. Before all of this I thought I knew that Heavenly Father loved us. During this turning point in my life I have never felt his love SSSOOOO strong. It is probably the most humbling thing to realize someone loves you that much. Even (maybe especially) when you feel like you don't deserve it. And to think that is just a tiny glimpse of his love for us. It is also humbling to have hundreds of people care so much about you and pray for you. I have really grown through this experience. It's funny to me how, if you let it, one trial can teach you MANY MANY things. Almost as many things as you let it! If you don't let it teach you, it can ruin you.

To my twinner

So, my wonderful amazing twinner Kelcie has decided to move home for the summer. And she is leaving on FRIDAY! this is our last little bit together until next fall!!! It is so weird to think about!!! She has kind of been my security blanket in Salt Lake! We always kinda played off each other and became known as the Kelsey's. I probably would not be where I am today with out her! I guess it is time for me to be a big girl and do life on my own! It will be pretty weird not having her here. So Kels, heres to our many wonderful days and nights living the dream in Salt Lake! It may be a long summer without you! but it will make Fall just that much better! Life changes SSOOO quickly!

Who's a giant grumpy pants raise your hand!!!!

OOO OOOO ME ME PICK ME!!!

patience--whats that?

kindness--out the window

happy and cheerful--only in short spurts throughout the day

tolerance--good joke!

I don't know what my deal is but I am just not a people person today. Like everyone and everything is getting on my nerves. I need an attitude adjustment. I want to be alone but then when I am alone I hate it and just want to be with people. I am bi polar or something.

Obligation?

I have come to feel some what obligated to update my blog. I mean really....it hasnt been too long since I last updated it...but i just had this like nagging feeling.... you have a blog you need to update it. Not to mention the fact that whenever I get on to see if someone has updated their blog, I am always disappointed if no one has updated. Therefore, a feeling of obligation.

So, nothing is really new.... I can't decide if thats a good thing or a bad thing. Most of the time I am feeling ok about my Dad. Of course I miss him like crazy. I still have my moments that are really hard, but I have been very blessed with the gospel and a knowledge of my Heavenly Fathers plan. It definitely makes the hard times easier to deal with.

Life has kind of become a routine for me. But strangely I am kind of ok with it. I go to work, I come home, I go to bed, I get up and go to work. No cute boys to think about.... The thing i look forward to the most is sleeping in on Saturday. But (maybe sadly) I am content with life for the most part. I feel like I am where I am supposed to be doing what i am supposed to be doing. What more can you ask for right?

Right now I am crossing my fingers that I will get a teaching contract at my school. It seems pretty up in the air still. I REALLY love my school. I love the kids, the other teachers, the people I work with, everything! I feel like I need to be there. And i guess if i do need to be there it will work out so that I am. I also need to find a job for the summer. I have NO idea what I am going to do yet. I have applied a few places and am just crossing my fingers. I thought about teaching summer school, but I dont think i will make enough money.

I get to babysit my 3 favorite kiddos in the whole world tomorrow!!! My brother in laws sister is getting married, so i get to watch my niece and nephews while they are in the temple. In a way it is convenient. but sometimes i wonder if it will ever be me IN the temple instead of being the one outside watching the kids. Going to weddings always makes me want to get married....and then i really think about it and i realize I am not ready to get married, no matter how bad i may want to get married! Haha....maybe someday....

Any way...enough randomness for now....until next time.

Depends on the Day

So...my car randomly decided to FREAK out today... I was driving along and i KNOW for a FACT my gas thing said i had half a tank but all of the sudden it started dinging at me because it said I had low fuel. AND the temperature gage decided to freak as well and switched back and forth between all the way cold to right in the middle. it would switch about every five seconds. So I got to my friends house and parked and just prayed it would be ok. I asked a few people what i should do and none of them really had a definitive answer. So when I left to come home I just hoped it would be ok. and it was. BUT the whole scary nerve racking event really really really really made me miss my Daddy. He was always the first one I would call about anything to do with my car. He knew the answers to all my problems. I wanted to call him. My first thought was to call him..... and oddly enough (its probably psychological) I didn't get an answer from any one else. No one else could give me the answer i needed or wanted because it wasn't from my dad. Most of the time I do ok in dealing with my dad's passing....but it is moments like this that i REALLY miss him.

A Daddy...

I couldn't sleep last night so i just started writing down memories of my dad and I. It may not make a lot of sense because i just wrote and it was late...but here you go. Each part is a memory I have of my dad.

A Daddy...

A daddy's love is unexplainable
When he first holds you, he already loves you.
He is already proud of you.
He is already worried about you and wants what's best for you.

A daddy is the one that checks under the bed for monsters.
He makes sure that you will always be safe.
He teaches you things he doesn't even realize he is teaching you...
Like smacking your lips after you take a big drink.

A daddy gives you earthquakes
Even if you say it bugs you, it really doesn't
He tickles you until you can't breath
Just so he can see you smile and hear you laugh

A daddy teaches you how to hammer a nail.
He says "You did great!" even if he fixes it later.
He teaches you how to fish.
He lets you reel in the fish he caught, and lets you claim it as your own. (even if it is the biggest catch of the day)

A daddy comes to all your little plays and performances.
He knows how much it means to you.
He's the one behind the camera taking pictures of everything.
It's kind of embarrassing, but you'll thank him later.

A daddy is the one you call when you wreck the car.
It takes you a few minutes to get the guts to call him.
You think he is going to be mad,
but all that is important to him is that you are ok.

A daddy teaches you how to drive his beat up stick shift truck.
Even though he can't talk and is still sore from surgery.
Even though he got an earthquake of his own!
He does it just because you randomly decided you wanted to learn.

A daddy comes to your college graduation,
even though its hard for him to sit that long.
Just from the look in his eyes, you know he has never been more proud of you.
He doesn't need to say it. You already know.

A daddy may get upset with you.
It's not because he doesn't love you.
In fact, its because he DOES love you.
You may not like to admit it, but you learn from it and love him for it.

He may make you crazy.
You will probably think he is trying to ruin your life.
But a daddy wants what's best for you.
A daddy loves you more than you may ever realize.

A daddy is your hero.

My Daddy

For those of you that do not know yet, my Dad passed away yesterday. It has been a very hard reality to face, but we are making it through. He went much quicker than we anticipated but, it is SO much better for his sake. I know for a fact that he is in a much better place. He is happy and healthy and doing so much to help up in heaven. He is no longer in pain and no longer suffering, which was probably the hardest part for me to see. It was almost a exactly a year after he was diagnosed with cancer that he died. I wrote in my journal March 22 2009 that he was officially diagnosed the Friday before. Thank you all so much for your love, support, concern, thoughts, prayers, generosity etc etc etc the list could go on. Here is a really good quote I found the day before he passed away.

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, "I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along." . . . You must do the thing you think you cannot do. Eleanor Roosevelt

Festival of Colors

The after math...on the way home from the shuttle

Full body shot

Beck and I taking an action shot

The Hindu Temple

Before shot

Kelcie Becky and I went to the Festival of Colors at a Hindu temple in Spanish Fork yesterday. It was SO much fun! We bought bags of chalk and just walked around and threw chalk at each other and other people. We had it every where. When we blew our noses we had purple boogers....our teeth were purple and when we spit you had black spit. At one point everyone flung up the chalk and created a giant cloud. It was impossible to breathe and I was gagging on all the chalk that was in my mouth. It was so fun though! here are some pictures to document our adventure.

Utah Driver

I finally have my car registered.... I have a Utah drivers license, Utah license plates, Utah insurance.... I am officially a Utah driver.... I dont know how I feel about it. After all the work, pain, stress, and agony in getting the car thing situated it is MOSTLY taken care of. I did find out that my serpentine belt is badly cracked....So I will probably end up replacing that soon. Dang cars....

My certification stuff is STILL a giant pain in my butt...and I cant apply for jobs til i have my cert stuff done. I am INCHES away from having it all but i had to pay $40 to get a hard copy of my Praxis scores.....ouch....

The teachers and principal were talking about the FTE today at school. It makes me pretty nervous. Everyone tells me they all love me at my school but it makes me nervous about getting a job. FTE is basically the projected number of student in each grade for the next school year. and based on the number of students that is how they know how many teachers they can hire for the next school year. Well thats pretty much all that is going on in my super crazy life....

Home Bitter Sweet Home.

I have never been good with words. It is WAY easier for me to say what I am thinking in writing.... So here goes nothing....

I came home this weekend. It has been almost a month since I have been home so I was REALLY excited to get back. I felt like I really needed to be here and couldn't wait to see my parents. Its just frustrating to me because now that I am here it is REALLY hard... I can't decide where I should be. When I am in Salt Lake I just want to be back here....when I am here I just want to be back in Salt Lake. I think in a way its easier to be in Salt Lake....but not for good reasons.

I think I decided today that I am not really sad that he is going to die. Because of the gospel background that I have I am almost comforted in the fact. It is just SSSOOO hard to see him SO miserable. He is just slowly but surely dying. and suffering the whole way. I think that is the most upsetting part. Especially knowing that there is nothing I can do to fix it. I just have to sit any watch.

I have definitely learned that i was NEVER EVER meant to be a doctor. I have been helping take care of him since I have been here and it is really hard for me. I have a SUPER weak stomach. I feel bad. I feel like I should be here to take better care of him. Thankfully my grandma stays here pretty much 24/7. It is a huge comfort for all of us to know she is taking care of him. Not to mention she is the only one that does things just the way he likes it.

The questions i hate the most right now are:

• How are you?(not the normal kind but the oh....poor pathetic you....your dad is dying-sad-look-on-their-face kind)
• How's your dad?
• How was your weekend at home?
• What can I do for you?

At least from people that I don't know very well. Do you really need to ask? How do you think I am? he is? it was? not mention.....its not like i really want to talk about it at least not with them...... Probably the best thing you can do for me right now is to ask or talk to me about ANYTHING else. I think about it enough without everyone asking me all the time.

Here are the answers

• I'm not too great
  
• Hes not good, hes really sick and miserable
  
• It was harder than I would even like to admit
  
• You don't have magical healing powers so nothing.

bah hum bug...

I am a giant grump....ALL the time....
Anything sets me off. I am NOT like that.
I can't sort through the thoughts in my head.
I hate starting to cry because it takes me literally hours to stop.
The gospel my family and my friends are the only things that keeping me going.
Thank goodness I know what I know and have the gospel. (even with it I am a basket case)
I don't really sleep any more.....
For some reason I can't seem to face reality.

OH Geez.... ROUND TWO

So.... the windshield guy was supposed to come on Wednesday and fix my windshield... He told me to call him when I went to lunch and he would come to my work and fix it. So, I call him a little bit before lunch....no answer..... During lunch.....THREE TIMES......NO answer.... After school.....NO ANSWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I left him a message the first and last times....first one pleasant and hopeful. Last one grumpy and annoyed.....

SO, I decide to give it another try....maybe he forgot right? So I call again today....It rang a normal number of times and then voicemail. I called back a little later... ring ring voicemail. He ignored my call. This time I am all worked up again and So I leave him a nasty message. I said something like

" This is a JOKE! I tried to be nice the first time about you not fixing my windshield but now you are just ignoring my calls and will NOT call me back! I hope you feel good about doing a crappy job and just leaving it! Call me back or I will do something about it" (It sounded threatening in my head.....)

About half hour later I got a text from a number I didn't know. It said " I am not blowing you off I have been in the hospital the last two days. I will call in the morning."

That's what i get for running my big mouth.....proof that getting mad never does any good.....

OH GEEZ!!!!!!!!

Oh Geez......

It has been one of those days......

School was good! I was in a good mood! I was excited to go shopping with Kels and then go to Brad and Jeff's basketball game.... I came out of school and it was POURING rain. Usually i LOVE LOVE LOVE the rain! but i ran to my car and got in. I started it and then looked over to see a steady stream of water pouring into my car. New windshield + pouring rain = FAIL
Kels and I did the best we could to dry it off and tape it up and it doesnt seem to be leaking any more.... I called the windshield guy and was real grumpy with him. He felt really bad and was really nice about it so then i felt guilty about it.

So, i calmed down, we went shopping and then to the basketball game and then we decided to stop at the movie theater because they called me and said they found my ipod. It turned into a HUGE ordeal.... The manager was like well we found this ipod on Saturday and you were here weeks ago... your story doesnt match. How do I know its your ipod...(after i described it PERFECTLY to him.) I wasn't very nice... i was like well Apparently they just didnt find it until Saturday and your employees aren't doing their job properly!!! He said "I'm sure thats not the case" Eventually he pulled the ipod out of his pocket and I was like THAT is my ipod! and he was like well we just need to protect out customers... I tried to call you but your number didn't work. So, how do I know. and he showed me the number he called and it had 801-569-3080....so i told him that i told them it was 208 NOT 801 but they wrote it down wrong. He was still arguing with Kelcie and I and I was SO frustrated i was just like Well I dont care I have my ipod GOOD BYE!!! and he was like wait i need your number. I hope no one else comes in and asks for a white ipod with a blue case....I was like You have my number! its on your freaking paper! FOR THE LOVE!!!!!!!!!!! and walked out

We are probably two minutes down the road and my phone rings. I KNEW it was the theater.... so I answered and it was some poor teenage boy that had to suffer my wrath.... The boy said "Yeah....they answered....what am i supposed to say? Oh uh.... did you loose a white i pod with a blue case?" I was like YES AND I TOLD YOU THIS IS MY NUMBER I AM NOT A FREAKING LIAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GEEZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Poor kid.... I feel so guilty when i get mad...after the fact.... I was just so frustrated!!!! I just have all these frustrating things FLYING at me and theres nothing i can do about it! I just feel so on edge lately. I guess my life is pretty stressful right now...but I dont feel like that is a good or fair excuse.... Poor people that just happen to tick me off right at the wrong time.... Hopefully i make it through this with out killing any one.... or with out dying from stress.....

Growing Pains

So....hurray for me I bought my parents car from them. Little did I know the GIANT pain the butt it was going to be. My dad decided getting a loan from Idaho was a good idea..... Can I just tell you how hard it is to try and communicate with someone 300 miles away that will only talk to you Monday through Friday on the phone..... I don't even know when I am supposed to make my loan payment.... He still hasn't put the title in my name, so I can't even get my car registered.... I had a long weekend so I was hoping to get it all done this weekend but of course not! That would just be smart and convenient.

News flash: In my life smart and convenient things don't happen.

Having a car is SO much work. AND so much money. I had to get the windshield fixed, car inspections, car insurance, change my drivers license and THEN I can attempt to register my car. The stupid snow made it so that I couldn't get my windshield fixed until the afternoon, so I didn't get anything else done yesterday. There is so much more that I should have gotten done. I tried to call the insurance people today to get some quotes but there was only one open today and lucky me..... the insurance payment would be more than my car payment.....

Not to mention I have been getting letters from my student loans saying that i have to start repaying my loans at the end of June....which i also just found out that i have to find a new job for the summer..... So...in other words I have to start paying my loans back when my current job ends..... Stressful?

ya think? I really am feeling the PAINS of growing up. Can't I just mooch of my parents forever? Oh yeah...thats right.... my parents have nothing TO mooch because they have hospital bills up to their eyeballs......

Man alive I am grouchy mc-grouchpot today. debbie downer..... I need to do something to cheer me up.

Avoiding confrontation

Ever since I found out about my dad, I haven't really given myself time to think about my dad. I have really avoided coming face to face with whats going on. I have been busy enough that I have been totally able to do it. Now that I am back in fourth grade being an aide my life has drastically slowed down. I am still trying to avoid thinking about what's going on but its not working as well. And really....my method is not very effective because it just makes it so that I don't sleep at night...because I try and think of anything and everything else all night long so that I don't have time to register that he is dying. I don't know if I should admit this in public...but I had a really hard time going home just because it meant facing what I have been trying to avoid. Not to mention the fact that avoiding thinking and registering the fact in my brain is not helping because I need to spend as much time with my dad as I can. I feel like I really just need to take a day to myself and be alone...but at the same time I don't want to be alone. It's annoying because I don't want to stay at home so I go out to church activities and the whole time I am just thinking about how much I just want to leave....I was kind of excited for FHE tonight and then once I got there I was just in a bad mood and wanted to leave..... I feel kind of bipolar right now....or at least that I can't make up my mind.....

100 Things You Should Know About Me.

I am really bored.... and putting things off.... so what do I do? A stupid survey.... Enjoy!

100 Things You Should Know About Me

Ever been arrested? Nope....never plan on it either. :)

Most hated chore on the household chore list? Laundry

Tell me about your first road trip in your first car. Road trippin it down to Utah to go to a Secondhand Serenade concert with Salena and my brother.

In life who has had the most influence on you? depends.... my mom, my sister, my close friends.

What do you consider your greatest achievement? Having a Bachelors at 22

What is the one thing for which you would most like to be
remembered for after your death? um..... my happiness? I need more time to think about it....

If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates? I'm so proud of you!

Do you have any phobias? Mice, snakes, spiders...bugs in general I suppose. Small crawly things....

If you were to perform in the circus, what would you do? high wire or the trapeze

If you could be one kind of beer which one would you be and why? I wouldn't.... Beer is gross.

If you were a kitchen appliance – what would you be and please make the sound of that appliance? a toaster....chooo (like when your toast pops up)

Tell me about a family member you are really proud of. My brother Shane. I admire how he makes up his own mind. He doesnt let people tell him what to do. Even though he made some goof ups he accepts his decision and tries to make the best of it. Right now he is working really hard for what he wants.

Do you have any relatives in jail? Not that I know of

If you had to, what relative would you lock up in the shed and why? There are a few cousins i wouldn't mind shoving in a shed for a while... I won't name names though....

What did you enjoy about school? I liked being at school and learning all of that stuff in class. I just hated the homework.

Name 1 thing you miss about being a kid. Not having to make important decisions.....

Who was your enemy or the bully when you were young? Brittany Bohner. She always said i had chubby cheeks and ears that stick out too far. Which is true....but I didn't like hearing it... hahaha

As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up? I kinda remember wanting to a nurse.

When and with whom was your first kiss? N/A

What extremely difficult life situation have you overcome and how did you do it? When I was younger I moved around a lot. It was really hard on me because I was so shy. I hated having to make new friends all over again. I just had to face my fears and make an effort to make new friends.

What is the most embarrassing thing ever to happen to you? uh.... i dont know if i can think of particular event.... there are too many...

Was there ever a time when you were frightened for your life? Yes. Can anyone say No to this question?

Which is the best vacation you’ve ever had? SEATTLE!!!!!!!!!!! SSSSSOOOOOOO fun!!! I wanna go back! I think it was mostly the company and the fact that we went on our own.

Which is the most funniest prank played on you or played by you? I am not a big pranker... Our FHE brother stole our burner nobs on the oven so that we couldnt turn on our stove for like a day and then they returned them frozen in a bowl of water.

What is the craziest thing you have ever done? i can't think of anything..... :(

List 1 thing you wish you could change about yourself: I wish I was more outgoing.

Who would you turn to if you were in desperate need of help? depends on what i needed help with. My brothers, My parents, my sisiter, Kelcie, Katelyn, Salena

If you could choose, how would you want to die? quickly

If you could change the world what would you do? Let everyone know how much Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ care about and love them. If everyone understood that I think it would fix a lot of problems in this world....

Name 1 thing you love about being an adult. Doing what I want when I want. IE eating ice cream for dinner, staying up late, going where ever i want....

Which would you rather have, $50,000 or true love? true love

What do you value most in life? My believes, my family and friends.

If you were one of two people left on this earth, and the other was of the same sex; would you go gay? HECK NO!!!!!!!!

Do you believe everything happens for a reason? To an extent. I think that we can learn something important from everything that happens. Everything that happens helps us learn.

What do you consider the most important event of your life so far? I dont know about MOST important...but moving to Utah has been very important.

What would be your dream job? In a way I have my dream job.... i just want to get paid more to do it. I love being a permanent sub/ teachers aide. Working with small groups of children and teaching where i dont have to plan or deal with the politics and side crap of teaching.

Have you ever lived or worked out of the country? nope

If you could have 3 wishes granted, what would they be? I could work at the same job i have now and get paid at least a normal teachers salary, my dad would be cured of his cancer, i could be more patient.

If you HAD to change your name, what would you change it to? uh.... its weird to think about changing your name. I think Nora or Lily is cute...

Name three exotic countries you would like to visit. exotic? Well i really want to go pretty much any where in Africa! is that exotic?

When you die - what part of your personality do you want to be remembered for? Didn't i already answer this question?

If you could add a single option to your car, what would you add? Sun roof?

If you could start your own restaurant, what would it be? a Pizza place

What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime? Have a family, be a mom and a wife

If you knew you were going to die in 24 hours, name three things you would do in the time you had left. Spend time with my family and friends. talking laughing reminiscing

If you could go on a road trip with any person (dead or alive), who would you choose and where would you go? Pretty much any one willing to go! I love road trips!

What is the craziest thing you have ever done? i couldn't think of anything.... remember?

Tell me about your first road trip in your first car....i already did......

What crazy fads were popular when you were a teenager? in middle school it was they white eye-liner/eye shadow..... low rise jeans... i dunno it wasnt that long ago....